True Friends

I think everybody has some idealistic view on what the perfect friend would be like. But of course in reality people can never meet all of your expectations. I have personally had a lot of friends to come and go in my life. Mostly due to changes in location. Others I have lost along the way primarily because they didn't meet my expectations. For me a true friend is a person who is more than willing to share every single detail of their day or life and respectably listen when you are doing the same. A true friend shares their feelings regardless of whether or not they think it might hurt your feelings because the truth is more important. A friendship based on lies is worst than any enemy you could ever have. That kind of deceit is deep and corrosive. I think we can all relate to a frienship gone bad. What it all boils down to in my opinion is communication. Something said is generally better than something left unsaid. A true friend is also someone who can see past all your bullshit and call you on it. They also know the most intimate details and shadiest secrets you have and they still love you. One of my best friends can say the most blunt thing possible and it not be deemed as degrading or manipulative. She doesn't have a hidden agenda behind everything she tells me. Its based on her caring about me and what is best for me. I love her for being someone who doesn't lie to me. That is a true friend. Really I am not sure where this is going, but just something I wanted to throw out there. I think a lot of people today don't really know how to be a true friend and when things go wrong they blame them on everyone else or fate or some bullshit like that. Accepting responsibility can begin a healing process so maybe next time you won't be the one to fuck up. "Friend" or not, I think its important to not let someone make you feel like you are less of a person than them. Obviously if they are doing that, then they don't really care about you at all. You are only there to feed their ego. As it was once said in a movie I particulary like "I love that word 'relationship.' Covers all manner of sins, doesn't it?" Sometimes its just time to let go. Some people are more like a disease or a parasite than a friend. Okay enough.

Long Awaited Blog

Honestly I have had the best intentions to write a new post on here way before now. It was not until today that I noticed Walter's comments for me to write another one. I check his blog often, as does Seth, and its always engaging. He has the most descriptive and odd things happen to him. Where as I watch other people's kids all day, come home to watch Jeopardy and fall asleep to Aqua Teen Hunger Force by 9:00 PM. I find it harder and harder to stay up late the older I get. Last night the neighbor's had a party and I felt strange thinking "Its okay they have been quiet for a long time. They need a night of fun." I felt like their mom delegating when they could have fun with their friends. I remember staying up to all hours of the night in college. I was the nightlife. I loved to be awake at night. I would rush to class in whatever I threw on ten minutes before and rush back in between to take 10 or 20 minute naps. I was the Queen of Naps. I haven't had an actually real nap in nearly a year. I wake up too late to take them now. And the sad thing is I wasn't up late...I was asleep last night by 11. That is with the party still raging on. We gave them a time limit of 1:00 AM and they seemed quite excited about it. Like their parents had let them stay up an extra hour or something. I woke up around 1:38 AM for no apparent reason and they were silent as lambs asleep in their beds or moved on to someone else's apartment to torment their neighbors. Still no word on my buying a house. I have an offer in on a different one that I like better. Its actually a trailer which is something I said I would never live in, but its actually really nice. And its a starter home anyway. Its not like I am committed to living there forever and ever amen. Not to mention it is on nearly 5 acres and on a quiet street. I hope to hear something soon. But I always do. Buying a house is like the hardest thing ever. I thought it was much easier than this. Who knew? Anyway, I gotta go get a shower and get ready to go to my sister's basketball games. Oh the excitement of watching three year olds run up and down the court...meanwhile Audrey is running circles around her coach and climbing on the goal and waving at us the whole time. Sarah's game is actually the interesting one. She does a great job. This is their last game of the season however so their energies can again be used for evil instead of good.