The House Hunt/Motivation

I never thought that finding a house that I liked and could afford would be so hard. Every single time I find something that suits me, it gets gone before I even have a chance to breathe. My last house that I put in an offer on was bought right out from in under me. It seems like no matter how many offers I put in, it just gets gone before I can get an answer. Crazy! Next topic, I have realized how unmotivated I am to do anything, ie clean, exercise, read, write, etc...And this is driving me crazy. I know that if I would just start then I would become more motivated just by getting my feet wet. Alas, I have not done so. I was thinking of joining a gym, but there is always the lingering question of if I will actually go there. I like the thought of there being equipment and guidance in a work out rather than me just walking the parking lot of Cedarwood, which I don't' even do. But I don't want to just waste my money. I am not the most outgoing of people nor am I the one with the most self-esteem, so going to a gym with skinny little bubbly people who might seem to think I don't belong there might cause me to have an attack. Not to mention that I think quite a few people I choose not to ever see might also be members of said gym, ie my old highschool flame (who is actually Satan in disguise). But I do not want to be flabby and shabby anymore I want to be buff and stuff, but then again I have said this many many times in the past and as yet not been motivated. It all boils down to MOTIVATION. I need to find me some of that and maybe then it will all click into place...okay going to go clean and see if I can get the train out of the station...